Victor! Not victim!



You go tell that devil he is a liar! (John 8:44)

It doesn’t matter what form he takes, he can come in like a friend or like a lover (2 Corinthians 11:14)  Everything hidden, every lie told, will be revealed (Mark 4:22) Because God watches after His children.

Even if the accusations he brings were true, do not fear, do not be intimidated, and do not back down. Because our God makes ALL things new! (2 Corinthians 5:17)

The devil always has a counterfeit. He knows Who you belong to, that is why he attacks you at your most vulnerable spot.

So, you dry those tears, you shake off the dust, and you get back in the race. God is not done yet. You are not a victim, you are a victor!

Yea, I preached this to myself this evening and thought I would share it with you, in case you needed to be reminded too.



My King, He is everything to me


There is something about Third Day that makes me feel like I am home.

Click here to be blessed.

No matter what you are going through, things change, seasons change, people change…

But, He is ONE constant…

Who is this King of Glory that persues me with his love
And haunts me with each hearing of His softly spoken words
My conscience, a reminder of forgiveness that I need
Who is this King of Glory who offers it to me
Who is this King of angels, O blessed Prince of Peace
Revealing things of Heaven and all its mysteries
My spirit?s ever longing for His grace in which to stand
Who’s this King of glory, Son of God and son of man
His name is Jesus, precious Jesus
The Lord Almighty, the King of my heart
The King of glory
Who is this King of Glory with strength and majesty
And wisdom beyond measure, the graceous King of kings
the Lord of Earth and Heaven, the Creator of all things
Who is this King of Glory, He’s everything to me
The Lord of Earth and Heaven, the Creator of all things
He is the King of glory, He’s everything to me

Nothing deep… just human


Have you ever just wanted to write something so profound, so very deep, it would be like a light bulb to the minds and hearts of the reader,  and it would bring instant healing and understanding? But, instead you stare at the pc and your mind goes blank? Because truth is, the deepness you are feeling right now is like the edge of the abyss?

Yea? Me too.

In fact, I am in somewhat of  pensive mood this evening. Maybe it’s because I am tired? Maybe it’s because I kind of have a lot on my plate right now? Maybe it’s because I just want a hug and a nap?

I am feeling like the woman who weaved her way through the crowd just to touch Jesus. I am sure she was tired, too. I bet when she heard He was in town she gathered herself up and said “This is it! If I am ever going to be healed now is the time.”

Or the woman who wept at His feet? Oh,  the peace and security to just feel the coolness of the floor and the warmth of His presence. He wouldn’t even have to verbally speak. There would not be enough words in all the languages combined to  express His touch.

I am a little tired and I am feeling the weight of “aloneness.” I know that doesn’t sound very “spiritual” or much like faith, but I am human, you know.  I just want to lay myself at His feet and just rest.

Are You A Plate Juggler?


Do you ever feel like a plate juggler? All of your plates in the air and your arms are getting tired and it is becoming increasingly difficult to keep them in motion and you know if one more plate was added you will let them fall.

This is what it feels like when you are a people (person) pleaser.

You try to be who they want you to be and in the process you forget who you are. You are fearful they will leave you if you let one plate drop.

You stop thinking for yourself, or at least stop speaking your own thoughts. You agree even when you don’t agree. You remain silent when you should speak and speak when you should remain silent. You tip toe around, leaping over the elephant in the living room, and finish your performance with a plié, as if expecting an applause, a standing ovation from your audience. But that doesn’t happen, does it?

Your own self worth is chiseled away for the “sake of keeping the peace.” You feel very small and vulnerable.

You hear a small voice telling you this is not right. You get a momentary feeling of bravery and you say to yourself, “today is the day I am gonna throw these plates down.” But, ya don’t.

You were created to be you, NOT someone else. There is great value in who you were created to be. There is only one you. Hidden deep inside of you is a gift and the gift was placed there to help you fulfill your purpose.

Maybe you have buried the gift so deep and are afraid to use it because someone told you it was ‘nothing’? Someone treated you, and your gift, as common and you believed them. You have compared your gift with the gift of others and you thought yours was dim in comparison.

This is not a good place to be in. I know.

The plates carry names:

  • relationships
  • work
  • bills
  • time
  • (you can fill this one in)

You can not give 100% to 100 things. There has to be balance. Perhaps it is time to do inventory and weigh the importance against the urgent. Drop some of those plates!

Be yourself. Your wonderful self. If you forgot who yourself is, then take some quiet time, go to the One who created you and let Him restore you.

It is too exhausting trying to be someone we are not. There is only one you, so be the best you you can be.

Jesus say’s in Matthew 11:28-30…

design3“Come to Me, all who are weary and heavily burdened [by religious rituals that provide no peace], and I will give you rest [refreshing your souls with salvation]. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me [following Me as My disciple], for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest (renewal, blessed quiet) for your souls. 30 For My yoke is easy [to bear] and My burden is light.”


Now, who is better and more trustworthy than Jesus to give your plates to? No one!



A Light for Your Path


Do not despise the seasons of loss, pain and heartbreak. For out of these seasons creativity is born. It can be used as a catalyst for growth and greater appreciation for all things beautiful and not so beautiful.

Don’t stay in the valley of “what if” and “if only.” This valley is a lonely walk to death.

Instead, lift your eyes to the hills, for that is where your help comes from. Your help, your healing, comes from Jesus alone. He has gone before you and He has made a way. He is all knowing and ever present. Do you truly believe He did not see this coming?

Some things are not meant for you to figure out. Are there things we could have done differently? Sure. But, my friend, we learn and we grow.

Stay close to Him, follow His voice, and He will direct your path. Faith is not faith until we put it into action. So have faith to believe He is with you and you have a future.

He is the light to your path, follow Him.

Be Free & Stay Free


I Am Back… you all still there?


It has been awhile since I last posted. A lot has happened the last couple months.

You know that circle of insanity? Yea, the one where if you keep repeating the same thing you keep getting the same results? You know, it’s like you expect a different result and you do not change things. Yea, that’s crazy, right?  Well, I do believe that is what they call the definition of insanity.

Well, the guy and I got back together for a few months. Things were going well, at first. But, doesn’t it always in the honeymoon stage? We are no longer together… surprise, surprise, but this ending is different. I am not broken this time.

You see, God prepared me for this. Really, I should have stayed away, but I didn’t.

Dysfunctional relationships are like an addiction. Let’s say it is like an addiction to pain killers. You receive a temporary reprieve from pain, but then you have to start upping the doses or face withdraw. Because even though pain killers do not treat the problem (the source, the root) they do offer a temporary high to make you forget the pain (even for a moment). But, you know, eventually you will have to deal with the issue if you truly want to be free and healed. Anything else we do to numb the pain is just applying a band-aid; the blood still flows beneath the band-aid.

What I have finally learned is:

  • even with a new start, some things you should not re-open
  • pay attention to the gut, the inner voice
  • trust your friends, the ones who know you and love you
  • I am capable of forgiveness
  • My worth is not in a relationship (other than with God)
  • I can love
  • I am stronger than I think
  • Life goes on
  • Above all else, Trust God!

Did I make a mistake getting back with him? Maybe.

Do I regret it? No.

Does it hurt? Yes, of course. It does hurt when you lose someone you love. But that does not mean it is a bad thing.

Now, the positives are this….

  • God opened new doors for me
  • God continues to provide
  • God continues to speak to me, love me, and will never leave me
  • I have a whole new perspective

I am better, not bitter.

When we put things in proper perspective, we can say with assurance, “For I consider [from the standpoint of faith] that the sufferings of the present life are not worthy to be compared with the glory that is about to be revealed to us and in us!” Romans 8:18

You see, when God has called you, when He starts a work, He will finish it! Nothing can stop Him! He will remove the obstacles, no matter if they are people, things, places, or vocations. He says to trust Him with ALL things! Nothing is too small, trivial, or too big. Trust Him with all things!

So, things may not have happened as I have hoped, or planned, but this is one thing I can be sure of… NOTHING catches Him by surprise. NOTHING!

As I am getting back into the writing of my posts, I want to finish my step back with this reminder from Isaiah 55:8-9

“For My thoughts are not your thoughts,
Nor are your ways My ways,” declares the Lord.

“For as the heavens are higher than the earth,
So are My ways higher than your ways
And My thoughts higher than your thoughts.”

I hope you are all still there and are doing well.

I am back, so let us grow together, heal together, and celebrate together!

Love you!