Why?

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I really do not like me sometimes. Like how I handle things…

Sometimes I feel like I just don’t know what “normal” is.

What does a “normal” relationship look like?

And why do I stay with people who devalue me?

Why am I afraid to say how I feel or what I am thinking? And when I do why does it come out a boggled mess?

Why do I allow the enemy to speak to me through people I love?

Why do I cling to people who obviously do not care if I am there or not?

Why do I justify their actions and their words… ?

Why does it break me?

How can I know the Word for everyone else, but to me… well, maybe it just doesn’t apply?

How can I believe that God is always here and yet I feel alone?

How can I place so much value on what could be?

I am so very tired of this!

Can you all pray for me, please?

 

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Let It Go

I found this meme on facebook, from a site called changing lives. It is a simple sentence, most would think a no-brainer, but let me tell ya…

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Even when you know it is time to go, there is always a sting when it ends. Because when they walk away you question everything,

  • Was it me?
  • What did I do wrong?
  • Did they really love me?

Then you get stuck, re-play every conversation in your head, every word they spoke and how true it sounded,

  • Surely it can’t be over because I trusted them
  • They will come back when they remember how much they loved me
  • They always came back before

Then you wait, every time the cell bings you jump because it might be them. You even begin to rationalize and role play in your mind what you will say when they call, only the scenario you play out in your mind is the one where you are the leaver and you are strong. Because let’s face it; in your imagination you believe they love you.

The worse is when the end came without a good-bye. No explanation. No blow out argument. Just a ghosting. It’s as if they fell off the face of the earth. All of a sudden they do not answer your calls or text. It’s confusing, should you be angry or concerned? Do you move on? But, what if…

  • They got hit by a bus and are in a coma and they need you?
  • What if they were just diagnosed with a terminal illness and they are sparing you the grief of watching them die, they want you to continue to live and be happy; so they are sacrificing themselves for you
  • What if there is some freak disconnection between your phones and they have been trying to contact you and you didn’t even know it?

What if? What if? What if?

JUST STOP IT!

You want the truth? Here is the truth and you may want to write this down and keep it in your pocket for when you need the reminder. Re-read it until you are strong enough to just move on…

They are not the one!

Remember when you prayed for God to send you the right one? Remember the vision God gave you and the purpose He has for you? Well, that person was not the one.

And that’s OK. Really, it is OK and you will be OK.

Please stop wasting your time and energy on asking why. In the grand picture it really doesn’t matter why.

This is what matters…

Trust in and rely confidently on the Lord with all your heart
And do not rely on your own insight or understanding.
In all your ways know and acknowledge and recognize Him,
And He will make your paths straight and smooth [removing obstacles that block your way]. Proverbs 3:5-6

Because…

“Do not fear, for I have redeemed you [from captivity];
I have called you by name; you are Mine! Isaiah 43 (click here)

Knowing how precious you are to God, do you not also know He will protect you? He will remove every obstacle, every derailment, and every hindrance? You have a purpose and your purpose is to glorify Him. So, when you live an obedient life to Christ, when you ask Him to remove all that is not of Him, when you truly want to fulfill your divine destiny ordained by Him Who called you, then you must let go.

If someone wants to walk away from you, then let them!

It doesn’t mean you did something wrong or could have done something different. It doesn’t even mean there is something wrong with them. It just means God has a plan for your life and that person is just not a part of it.

 

 

 

Blessing of Friends

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Yesterday was a rough day. Today is much better!

I ran into an old friend and it was great to be reminded who I am. It is nice to know you matter and made a difference in someone’s life.

Strange how when we meet someone we give up old friends. We like morph into someone else… unrecognizable.

Two are better than one, because they have a good [more satisfying] reward for their labor;  For if they fall, the one will lift up his fellow. But woe to him who is alone when he falls and has not another to lift him up! Again, if two lie down together, then they have warmth; but how can one be warm alone? And though a man might prevail against him who is alone, two will withstand him. A threefold cord is not quickly broken. Ecclesiastes 4:9-12

If someone really loves you there is no need to change, they will accept you, not try to change you . We are all imperfect people, in an imperfect world, but there is something about us that is unique. We are created like a thumb print, there are no duplicates.

We matter!

Sometimes people do not appreciate us and I am convinced it is because they do not even appreciate themselves.

It was wonderful, encouraging, and strengthening to be reminded who I am. I almost forgot who I was. I thank God for faithful friends. Cherish the friends God puts in your life. He loves you through them.