Why?

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I really do not like me sometimes. Like how I handle things…

Sometimes I feel like I just don’t know what “normal” is.

What does a “normal” relationship look like?

And why do I stay with people who devalue me?

Why am I afraid to say how I feel or what I am thinking? And when I do why does it come out a boggled mess?

Why do I allow the enemy to speak to me through people I love?

Why do I cling to people who obviously do not care if I am there or not?

Why do I justify their actions and their words… ?

Why does it break me?

How can I know the Word for everyone else, but to me… well, maybe it just doesn’t apply?

How can I believe that God is always here and yet I feel alone?

How can I place so much value on what could be?

I am so very tired of this!

Can you all pray for me, please?

 

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Blessing of Friends

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Yesterday was a rough day. Today is much better!

I ran into an old friend and it was great to be reminded who I am. It is nice to know you matter and made a difference in someone’s life.

Strange how when we meet someone we give up old friends. We like morph into someone else… unrecognizable.

Two are better than one, because they have a good [more satisfying] reward for their labor;  For if they fall, the one will lift up his fellow. But woe to him who is alone when he falls and has not another to lift him up! Again, if two lie down together, then they have warmth; but how can one be warm alone? And though a man might prevail against him who is alone, two will withstand him. A threefold cord is not quickly broken. Ecclesiastes 4:9-12

If someone really loves you there is no need to change, they will accept you, not try to change you . We are all imperfect people, in an imperfect world, but there is something about us that is unique. We are created like a thumb print, there are no duplicates.

We matter!

Sometimes people do not appreciate us and I am convinced it is because they do not even appreciate themselves.

It was wonderful, encouraging, and strengthening to be reminded who I am. I almost forgot who I was. I thank God for faithful friends. Cherish the friends God puts in your life. He loves you through them.